Young Adult Dark Urban Fantasy Author ~

When you don’t know..

My rewrites are numerous. My ideas…off the chart ridiculous. My scope…? I’m not sure it’s wide enough. And honestly, I’m not sure how to figure it out. I know that sounds stupid. Let me say it this way. I can name any number of my favorite books and point out just where they went right. The reasons the story works and flows. I can name a few other books that all but lose me. Or pick me up and then drop me again. The books that I need more from, more detail, more explanation, more feeling.

I read my book over and over with all the rewrites and editing. Some days, I love it. Other days, I wonder what in the hell? The questioning of my work is what messes me up. Really, I’m fine with that part of the process. The questioning, it’s needed to a point. What I’m not fine with is where to cut it off. When you read your own work so many times, it can feel cluttered and clunky. When I walk away from it for a few days, read it again, I see more hiccups and fix them. Again.

That’s just it. That’s the problem. I could do this same drill for months. I know I could. So when do I leave it the hell alone and know it’s where it needs to be? When I have too many thoughts and ideas at once, my head will likely explode. And I think that’s my issue. Too many ideas. I put my novel down, walk away, come back, read it again and “Hey! I’ve got an idea!” Or worse, “What am I saying??” I don’t know how to turn it off. All this second guessing will likely kill me.

9 responses

  1. Ellie

    Oh don’t you just love it when you get caught in this frame of mind???

    I know it’s not always that easy, but you need to get someone to read it. Forget grammtaical mistakes, and the words on the page, lets get down to characterisation, plots, sub plots etc. What is driving that story forward? Does it all hang together? Is there a glaring mistake in there that you fail to see? Or is it, and lets hope…just good. Cos good is excellent, you know that right?

    Once you have direction, you will find the process you are going through at the moment a whole lot easier.

    If ever you want someone to read through, I would be more than happy to. You know my background, and I definitely can’t do proofreading, but I do enjoy reading, and I understand the processes that need to take place. Just a thought…

    May 15, 2011 at 2:32 pm

    • Thanks Ellie. I may just take you up on that. Lisa Kilian may read it of these days. I’m the biggest freaking chicken. And you know my genre…talk about competition. Good god. AND I am a big hitters fan–like Anne Rice big. When you compare what you’re doing to Anne Rice, well, good luck. I’m rambling. See..crazy today:) Thanks for the support, I need it. And I will give your offer serious thought.

      May 15, 2011 at 2:49 pm

  2. Yes, someone else needs to read it. You can’t be the only one. It will, note – WILL, drive you crazy unless you give it to someone else.

    May 16, 2011 at 7:58 am

  3. I know, I know. I’m a total whimp lately. You know what it is…I had someone read the first draft–like a year ago. Only the first three chapters and the response wasn’t negative, but it wasn’t helpful either. Granted, the novel is a different story now after a year of rewrites but it kinda stuck. I’m getting there again. Slowly.
    Where have you been Submeg? MIA lately. Good to hear from you.

    May 16, 2011 at 8:51 am

  4. Yea, I’ve been quite busy, I’ve been in the progress of buying a unit, so I’ve had to focus on that and not on what I was posting. That is coming to an end soon, so I shall be able to focus more on reading and everything inbetween!

    May 17, 2011 at 9:02 am

  5. Congrats! Good to hear your thoughts and opinions..they keep me thinking.

    May 17, 2011 at 9:43 am

  6. Thanks!

    May 20, 2011 at 6:52 pm


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