Young Adult Dark Urban Fantasy Author ~

The burning Knee

Having been a classical dancer for most of my life, injuries are second nature to me. I’m pretty good with grinning and bearing it. The best example would be spraining my ankle on stage during a performance in front of a few hundred people. I kept dancing that piece and the two pieces that followed. It’s part of the trade. Similar I would say to cutting or burning myself during a dinner rush, while working the line, on a wait. You just keep going.

Being a dancer and a chef taught me a few very valuable lessons. The most important one–Don’t Quit. I am utilizing these lessons in my writing — or trying to.

Let’s face it, writing is hard–very hard at times. And not only because the craft must be mastered, but also because of the emotion needed to create characters, worlds, dialogue and conflict. It’s a struggle.

Not at all unsimilar to struggling with say….an old knee injury. My recurrent knee injury is from many years past (the ankle is good now). I was 15 when my orthopedic doctor suggested, no , he flat-out told me, to quit dancing because of my knee. Ha! Not likely. I do remember making a sort of hyena snorting sound. I didn’t quit. It wasn’t in me to quit. After physical therapy and a few weeks on crutches (because PT was so painful I couldn’t walk out of the office on my own) I was back to my vices.

Later, running became my new source of self-inflicted pain. Due to this marvelous decision on my part, I am back in PT with the same old injury. Riding the stationary bike for miles and miles in burning pain. Yes, I’ve been here before. Me and the bike are old enemies  friends.

Eleven miles today at  18 mph and the knee is feeling better. Honestly. Strange how something you hate can actually make you feel better at times. Like the taste of Nyquil. Gotta choke it down but in the morning, you can at least say you slept. Granted, it could be because Nyquil is like 80% alcohol–but that’s another post.

Point here–I have one–is that moving forward or not giving up is a necessary part of life. I hate that damn bike, but I’m gonna keep riding it because it helps me. I hate editing. I reallyyy do, and I hate the place I am in right now with my writing. The stuck place. Can’t move forward–can’t move backward. But I know if I keep peddling, keep pointing my toes, keep my hands away from the flames and KEEP moving straight with my writing–I will be okay.

So DON’T QUIT! My advice to myself, my advice to you. None of what we are doing here is easy. That doesn’t mean it isn’t worthwhile. It just means—well, it means some of us take the long way around instead of plowing through the middle.

6 responses

  1. Hey! I missed this post! (now I am filled with fear as to who else I have missed….uh oh!)

    I didnt know you were a dancer, well, didnt know as in fact but suspected you had some sort of ‘thing’ going on from your photo – no dont ask me to explain cos I cant lol!

    You are doing so much more than me on the writing front, you are ploughing through the lo times, fighting your way out of it. keep going!!

    October 20, 2011 at 4:49 pm

  2. Hahaha, I never thought about it but I suppose my photo is a bit dancer-esque.

    Oh you’re sweet, I am sooo stuck now though. Worse than ever. Being really busy adds to the distraction as well. But I’ll get there. On a bright note, I am reading like a crazy person;) That helps the focus.

    Hope your new venture is going splendidly!

    October 21, 2011 at 8:52 am

  3. I’m moving forward! Funnily enough I’m about to get on my bike! (literally)

    October 26, 2011 at 5:59 am

  4. Ha! Why is it that the three of us (you, me and Ellie) are never in the same place at the same time? I guess that’s the negative side of creative minds;)

    And maybe the positive too—who else would keep us all moving forward?

    Hope you’re good Leigh.

    October 26, 2011 at 12:27 pm

  5. Haha, it never works that way does it?! Yes, you always need someone to push, otherwise you have to find all the motivation from within yourself, which is very difficult!

    October 28, 2011 at 6:01 pm

  6. No, it never does;)) My motivation has been waning–picking up though. And I’m learning that this process is so much bigger than anyone on the outside could imagine. Bright side…the writing brain is churning again;)

    October 28, 2011 at 6:41 pm


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