After I posted my novel cover, and publication target date, to all of my social media sites, I felt a combination of relief, trepidation, and…naseau.
Truth — Besides the writing community and my very close friends and family–No One knew what I’ve been doing for the last two years. Why?
Fear of what people will think, what they’ll say.
All that crap that means absolutely nothing.
I mustered the courage to send my cover photo to a few friends and family, and went ahead and bit the bullet and posted it on my personal facebook page. Sad thing—that scared me more than anything else. Great thing—the response was overwhelmingly positive. And still somehow, I’m uncomfortable when my friends say, “I can’t wait to read your book!” or “That is so awesome, Laney!!”
I love them. Every one of them, for supporting me. But… I also understand what it feels like to put your soul into something and have that little devil sitting on your shoulder. The one who says, What are you thinking? You really think you can pull this off? Seriously?
As a former classical dancer, I know what it means to walk on stage and swallow fear. I’ve done it more times than I can count. After a while, it becomes old hat.
As a Chef, I know the feeling you get when someone sends something back to the kitchen because they hated it, or it was under cooked, or over cooked, or who the hell knows why. It stabs you a little.
And as the daughter of a Fine Artist—I know what it feels like from the other side of the street too. My mom has always said, “Not everyone will like, or even understand what I do. I don’t care. I’m not painting for them.” And she’s right.
Grab support where you stumble upon it, but don’t expect to find it if you go looking. That’s not what this is about. If you’re writing for the hopes of fame and fortune, pats on the back and great reviews, you’re writing for the wrong reasons. Write for you. Dance for you. Paint for you.
The ONLY person you need to convince of your talent, your drive, your passion—is you.
Just don’t buy into the hype.
May 16, 2012 | Categories: Author, Dance, Inspiration, Publishing, Thoughts, Writer, Writing | Tags: art, Arts, Author, Chats and Forums, Fine art, goal accomplishment, laney mcmann, Online Communities, Social media, Social Networking, Writers Resources, Writing, Writing Exercises, Writing Tips, ya fantasy author, YA Fiction, YA paranormal romance author | Leave a comment